being still has always been the hardest thing to do for me. the insecurity of not working a traditional 9 to 5 job has pushed me to work harder and harder, and when i accomplish something, it’s easily overlooked and i’m onto the next project or goal. it’s not a good way to live, because if i'm constantly living in the future, the life i have in front of me will be taken for granted and 2 years feels like a month. why’s that bad? every moment should be lived with gratitude and presentness. i can’t imagine having kids and not remembering their growing up stages because i was worried about tomorrow. 
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”- Matthew 6:34